You thought I was dead? Hell I thought I was dead.

Failure. Failure isn’t just when you don’t succeed its when you don’t pick up your ruined body and press forward. Even in media, we see our hero broken up nearly torn apart by his/her enormous challenge and they continue onward. (John McClain, Rocky, Naruto, Simon, Kamina, Nickola Tesla, hell even Wreck-it Ralph.) I fell and didn’t get up, I broke down and stayed down.

I stepped on the scale this week with pressing from my brother. He has been losing weight like a mad man and has lost 30lbs while I…I have gained 50lbs. I am disappointed in myself, I feel heavy, lethargic, and many other side-effects that hurt confidence like a monster.

NO FREAKING MORE! I AM TAKEN BY DREAMS, I will not fail that name, I will not fail myself and I will not fail my own dreams. Depression will not beat me. My black dog will get NEUTERED before I let that happen. Today is my first day of school, today I will be diving into my life, not just fitness but I’ve been slacking on my book writing, slacking on my living, and slacking at my dreams. This is taboo that I cannot accept. Dear readers I want you to join me on my path to greatness. So I’m going to have a little competition, Every week any poster that says a good fitness recipe that I can make will have a post dedicated to them about the recipe and a small video of me making it.

I will not be taken in by failure but be taken by dreams.

Come with me brothers and sisters, I will accept you as you accept me and we will get into a powerful more successful future.



I swear I’m not dead. Regular updates will start monday.

Update on the chubby guy!

It’s been a while, I’ve come a bit of a way but I need to have some talk time with my lovely followers. First off, I’ve been busy with my summer classes, I mean life or death busy. I think I passed two out of the three classes I’ve been working hard in. Image


With that out the way lets talk about FITNESS!!!! I’ve gained weight, two pounds exactly but I’ve been eating less so I’m a little confused. My friends say its muscle weight but erm… I’ve only been in the gym less than two weeks if I’m building muscle that fast I must be channeling in inner spirit of Hercules. Now I have been feeling better but one of my biggest problems is sleeping like a normal human being. My hours of sleep is 1am-5am this is not healthy and if I take the sleep medication that I got OTC it leaves me drained when I wake up.



I’ll be up in just a few more hours…..zzzzz

 Now enough on the sour news my lovelies! I have some good news and it comes like a mother-loving train. First bit of good news is that I found a workout buddy that I can drag to the gym, I tried asking most of my friends and most of them said yes but didn’t deliver now I got a friend that lives on the way to the gym that is willing to go when I go. wooohooo. (Note: I get more motivated when out with others. I don’t like to go at it alone.) 

Next bit of good news is that I finally reached that point of being able to say no. since last week I have said no to ice cream, cake, cheesecake, lava cake, frosted flakes, bacon, more bacon, sexy bacon, ultra thick cut bacon and thirsty females. I’m a little proud of myself even though I know I am still on the bottom steps to success. I am going to weight myself next Friday so everyone can get a good look at where I am headed. 





It pays to have good friends

A good friend of mine

Look at that pic….. LOOK AT IT. Ripped like a beast. 

This awesome person told me about body space and I took it. I am going to be crossing my posts with my Bodyspace to let any of you check my weight and size to tell me if I am doing a good job and sending me tips. I want the attention so that I can better make myself into a better person. I am going to post pictures of body so that you can see that I’m not a very fit person and that I am not trying to sell you a story that isn’t true I want you to see progress so that each of you can join me in the path.




This is my page so you can see where I stand. I just made it less than five minute ago. If you have any idea’s add it and Show Kathan some love!